With all the changes going on lately, I find myself wanting to retreat to the haven of home more and more. Some of these changes I’m excited for, and some terrify me. But for the first time, I’m not backing away from big changes, and that in all honesty, while terrifying, is equally as freeing. The big jump isn’t happening for a short while yet, so I have more time to prepare.
In times of stress, fear, anxiety, whatever ails you, it is so important to remember to take care of yourself. If you’re like me and tend to not see that you’re worn out until it’s too late, then set little reminders for yourself. If you feel yourself getting more anxious or exhausted, take a minute to gauge what you’ve been doing lately. Is it too much? There is no shame in taking a break.
I’m noticing that my “preparations” so far consist of reading, cleaning, organizing, anything even remotely distracting, even sitting back down at the piano again. Oftentimes I will talk about how things tend to sneak up on me or happen when I’m not paying attention, but I’ve noticed in recent times that I purposely take my attention off of things like that.
I’m far too aware to play much with words this time, and I don’t think that would be a good idea to begin with. Instead, I spend my afternoons catching up on work and working through the never-ending list of tidying. But in the small quiet moments, I find solace. I wouldn’t quite say peace…that won’t be here for another couple of weeks. Until then, solace will do nicely.
Solace, patience and a little bit of clarity, if I’m lucky.